I gave birth to my beautiful daughter a little over a week ago, since then I’ve been sick mentally and physically. I don’t want to take care of her but I don’t want her hurt, I hover over everyone else watching her but I don’t want to be the one to do the work, I just don’t want to feed/change her is something wrong with me? I love her so much but I count down the time until a friend comes over or my hubby can take her after work? I feel like a terrible mother. I washed bottles the other night and I left a couple dirty, and my hubby said “u can’t even wash bottles right” I feed her she chokes and cries? But she doesn’t with anyone else. I change her diaper and I take to long, I don’t swaddle her right, I feel I’m trying my hardest to do the best I can but I don’t feel bonded with her and the fact I can’t even do basic tasks like wash a bottle right? How hard can that be. How do I mess that up? Im so confused I want to be better but I physically and mentally don’t know how.