My addiction to porn has made me stay away from relationships have high expectations on woman I find attractive honestly not realistic, progress into more explicit intense material to find interesting and arousing,introvert personality of a loner whole life,I hadand still do an inferior opinion of myself and feeling inadequate of mymanhood for years, watching pornography of massive insertions and performers with members easily 4-8 times size of my member, knowing I can't ever expect to get reactions from sex like these non-stop orgasms,shy of women but not sure how to progress so I can have meaningful connections with women, not too happy with all years I wasted gratifying myself without growing, what are some small steps in right direction please and past experiences I quit drinking after more than decade, I'd like an idea of how to work on this not be so hard on myself be confident, things I can do to reverse the desensitization process and be aroused and confident with myself mild nudity and interaction