hello, i’m unsure where else to vent about this but I genuinely hope someone understands. I’m 23 and was with my now ex bf since July of 2019, 6 months into our relationship I took a picture of my phone and I deleted it since It looked funny, when I go to the recently deleted I saw at least 6-7 different nudes from different women, my heart broke. He explained they were nudes from some girl he had met but he assured he cut contact or whatever to make it short we moved on, gradually with time I lost trust, I went around snooping around more and everything else I found broke me. He had a reddit account and the accounts he followed were dedicated to horny people who wanted to trade nudes and he followed so many Tik tok nsfw accounts and tags to use on Omegle to find others into that. His camera roll was full of screenshots of random girls that would send him videos and pictures of themselves and he would send back. He had accounts on pornhub, chaturbate, camsoda, etc. When I found this out I had found out 2 months after he moved in with me, (we moved in when his parents kicked him out) and I supported that man through everything, I helped him get his drivers license his driving permit I made him work lunches I always encouraged him to go back to school to get his mind off his addiction since he let everything out to me after I discovered it. I am a very light hearted person, I always try to see the good in people which is why I hoped my then bf would change for the better of us. This happened in maybe June of 2022 from then up until May 10th of this year we stuck together & we were working full time jobs and I swore everything was getting better, well fuck I even trusted him in some ways again. Well on May 10th he moved out and went back with his parents because we were constantly fighting and just having really bad period intervals. We said we were going to use this period of time to heal and just reflect and grow as people. Well we FaceTimed and talked family but after week 2 I got a bad gut feeling about him, he was distant and cold for no apparent reason so since his phone number is on my cellphone plan I decided to go to the message logs, I saw so many numbers I didn’t even recognize and they were going back and forth at times like 3:32 am & 4:30 am ?? And the only thing I was able to see on those message logs was the time & the phone number & if they sent a photo/video attachment but I wasn’t able to see the message or pictures itself. I pressed the issue he said it was a random number that sent him feet pictures and he admitted to getting horny but just said that’s all there was to it. I reached out to the number and it turns out it was a 20 year old female that lives in Texas that met him on the call of duty mobile world chat and that he was looking for females that wanted to help him cum. She also said that they exchanged nudes and they they both mutually masturbated. My heart is broken, I don’t know how to feel or what to even say anymore, I held this man down through so much and I never asked for anything but his own self improvement because nothing would’ve been made me happier. This is all making me question myself at this point. I hate this feeling more than anything. Fuck. I feel so let down I don’t know what kind of responses I’ll get to this but I hope someone understands.