Unfortunately from a young age I've used porn as a coping mechanism to escape the world and pretend everything is fine but I hate it. Everytime I start again my mental health just deteriorates more and more and I become more reliant on it to escape. I just feel so lost and alone in this world and I hate that it's my only go to. I want to quit but fuck it's so difficult. Everytime something goes bad in my life I sink back into it to distract myself and it only makes it worse. I hate it. It makes me hate myself. I just don't know what to do honestly. Mostly posting right now because I'm feeling extremely low, and alone and just don't know what to do. No one to go to. Sorry if this isn't exactly the right place to post this I'm just feeling so alone in life right now and the porn really doesn't help. It only makes me feel worse everyday.