I just need a vent. I’m sad and can’t talk to anyone about it as no one else I know outside theses people mentioned are in the style of relationship I have.

So to start all this I’m poly I’m married my husband doesn’t care and he’s mates with my friend who I was super excited to see

My friend M is coming to my place for NYE and my bday (2 days later) anyway M spoke to his partner N (they’re both post breakup with A) and she’s completely flipped on being okay with M & I hanging out as a “couple” lookalike. Like be able to do all the couple stuff without that label as we are still in discussions.

And now I’m just sad. I respect him and his relationship with N but we haven’t seen each other since well about Easter and she was all chill before.

I was so looking forward to seeing M and hubby K doesn’t know yet as all this unfolded while he was a sleep he only woke up to me crying. He needs some time away from me and I get it I’m a lot of person for hubby. Hence why we are poly.

I don’t want M to go “get fucked I’ll do what I want” as I respect N to much for this. But it just makes me sad that I can’t be myself again and can’t really bring myself to chat to M about it because over communication is a real thing.

I’ll just have to hold it all bottled up. And pray I can hide it from everyone.

This sucks.