It's loud here

The rust colored sunset

The clashing of swords

Frantically taking in all that's been lost

It's bloody, messy and pure chaos

Yet I'm still in the wake of it all

I'm here but the battle isn't against me

It's for me, because I'm the light when it becomes dark and I'm the light even in the worst fight

I could easily flee Yet my body won't carry me

I can't bring myself to leave

Because I know you'll make it out of this

So I'll wait

Stubborn and immovable

And even though others wish to take me away

I shove them back because they aren't deserving

Yet, you...keep saying you're not deserving

As if your life you are preserving

I'm no savior

In fact the opposite

I can destroy

And I can harm

Everyone sees someone sweet

Someone so loving

Someone who seems so deserving of so much better

But who is better?

Where is the one who finally says this is her, the one worthy and I'll give her everything she has ever deserved

But what if it's a lie

That deep down I'm not, so I'll choose my own

Perhaps im the one undeserving, a demoness

Preying on temptations

Craving lust

Yet denying it

With my voice I lure

Come to me

Try to win me

Am I good

Am I evil

I am neither

Because if I have your lust, do I have your love

And the answer is clear

It's my curse

To be desired

Yet never loved

To be only seen on the surface

Never beneath

Because I've been broken and mishandled

Yet my pieces have been divinely melded back together

False purity

Faux innocence

This is my locked mask

Someone holds the key

But what will they find

When they reach the deepest part of me?

No, don't pity me

Don't fix me

I'm not broken

I'm just lonely

But who is brave enough to take my hand?

A wonder, a light left in darkness

I'm so used to these demons

I believe I've become one

Yet I know now as I've been healing

They can't touch what I truly am

This fallen creation

My wings so far from me

It's been so long since I've felt them

Yet I feel the pain of emergence

I'm slowly remembering

Who I was destined to be

The one who truly saw me

The shadow shrouded one who reached me

You are worthy

My sweet chaos

Let me dispel your darkness when the time comes