Hi all. I’m about to go wedding dress shopping for the first time. I even did the special appointment where we have the whole salon for 2 hours with champagne and stuff at a plus size boutique. I was really excited at first so I invited 8 people close to me to come. But now I’m actually dreading it. I have always been overweight but right before I had my second daughter I had lost 50 pounds and was on track to lose more. I was feeling myself. Now, 4 months post second baby and it’s all back and I just feel awful and I don’t like looking in the mirror at home let alone a bunch of people watching me at my most vulnerable. I want this to be a fun time and I want to have this wonderful experience with my friends and family who I know love me and don’t care, but I’m just honestly upset. I feel like I won’t find anything that looks even okay. I don’t know what I wanted out of writing this except to vent to people who could relate. Have any of you struggled with this and have any pointers for helping me get through? I appreciate you all. Thanks so much for listening.

Edit: I had my appointment today and everything went so well. I was able to try on everything I wanted and they all looked like they fit amazing with all of the clipping they do. Not only that but I found one I really really love! I felt great and while I have my own insecurities around my body, I genuinely felt like the dresses looked nice on me. Thank you to everyone for your kind words, they helped me feel at ease going into the appointment. I have one more appointment next week and if I don’t find anything as good as the one I loved today then that’ll be the one.