Went out walking my dog today and as I get to the end of my street I see kids riding scooters and one a bike. As one is passing me he sings "big back big back " in the Dora the Explorer Backpack cadence.

I stopped and thought I know this shit head kid didn't just fat shame me. Part of me wanted to yell after him. I've seen these kids before so I thought of finding out who their parents were and letting them know. Or lecturing the kid on the impact of his words. But I did none of that. Instead i stood their for a bit and was instally defeated. Admittedly it was kinda funny if I could view if from a third person's perspective. But right now I'm not able to. I was viewing it from the deeply insecure place I was in.

I was reminded that my shirt was too tight and my shorts too short for a fatties. That nobody wanted to see my big ass but that's how the world saw me. As a big bitch. It spiraled and I went into self loathing in the walk and it ruined my whole mood for the evening. Worst part is I was waking my dog after working out. I am too ashamed to tell most ppl in my lrl that this happened I know they'd laugh