Hey :)

Funny, bcs I never thought I'd write to you this often. It's a cold night and my brain is overworking again. It seems to enjoy processing a lot of unnecessary thoughts at the moment. So here's some of them.

Nothing's interesting anymore. Not school, not med, not my friends, not me, not food, nothing. I don't enjoy reading as much as I should be, I don't enjoy anything that I do. I don't look forward to anything. I tried to tell others how I feel, trust me I did but words just instantly get lost when I try to open up. I tried showing signs but no one understands. Vic, no one understands. I'm not okay and I can't tell anyone. All I could think of is that you would. I don't know how you do it. How do you it? How did you do it?

How come you understood me on days I didn't want to be understood? How come you knew just what to do when I get lost in my thoughts? How come you never left when I told you countless times that I wanted to be alone? How come you heard me when no words would come out of my mouth? No one understands, vic. No one sees me like you did. No one listens.

Why? Where do I go then? Who do I go to? How come only you can handle me and I still lost you?

-K