I can't send this one to you so I'll write it here hoping that maybe you get to read this.

Hi,

Med school is so tiring. I never expected it to be easy but I also didn't know it was this draining. I couldn't even eat properly with all the workload and readings we have. Sleep? Out of the question. You aren't in the medical field but during undergrad you understood how hard it was and that it will only get harder from there. I remember when you told me that when I get to med school you know exactly what would happen to me, yk with my food and sleep and routines. Guess what? You were right. But I also remember that you wanted to stay with me because you love to cook and you wanted to feed me knowing very well that I forget to eat whenever I start doing acad stuff. You even offered to do everything else while I study kaya sabi ko, "hoy may trabaho ka na rin by that time. you'll be tired and busy too", you responded with a stupid smile plastered on your face saying, "but I want to".

It's been 2 years and you're happy with her. Our plans sounded nice but I doubt I even cross your mind anymore. Thank you, still.

I hope she loves you in every way I couldn't.

• K