Hello im (F30) and my bf is M(22) we met at work Very consistent siya kahit i was dating another person. Months came nadevelop naman na din ako. Si bf ehh halos hndi na umuuwi sknla til nagdecide to look for a place close to work then nag live in. A lot has happened nawalan siya ng work i was paying for everything then my mom died nahirapan ako bumalik sa dating ako nagresign ako asked for healing time but it took me so long, of was the one working and the one spending naman medjo nabaon sa utang like he got an iphone may mga grocery and yung apt namin eh sa kanila so may delays sometimes na nag add sa utang decided to work again kasi baka yun na yung kailangan ko ehh so work bayad utang bayad bills and all pero may utang pa din come january natangal sa work si bf two weeks after nawalan din ako ng work we decided na to open a start up food to go lang it clicked naman at first malakas pero dumating yung time na ayaw na niya magdeliver so unti unti nag close kami. When we closed i was looking na for jobs kaso i found out i was pregnant when i told him he got mad to the point na kahit hating gabi papalayasin niya ko sa apt namin kahit alam na niya na buntis ako. Hindi maganda yung pakikitungo niya skn nun, i asked his father to help me settle in so nakakuha ako ng apt sa tanza tpos ayun nagbago nanaman ang mood at umayos nanaman he was staying with me tpos uuwi sknla paminsan away bati malala. I had bleeding ehh holyweek yun walang clinic yung dr ko come april 1 nagpacheck na ko ultrasound we found out na 6 weeks lang si baby kahit dapat 10 weeks na siya binigyan ako pangpakapit ng dr. Yun din yung araw na nalaman niya na may utang ako sa maya, while i was buying meds i wasnt feeling well na pero masama pa din treatment niya skn. Nakauwi na kme nabasa ko msg niya sa friend niya like "nakita ko na si baby, pero tangina tong nanay binabaon ako sa utang" kahit inexplain ko sknya na i only took that money kasi walang wala na tayo. Dumiskarte lang ako ng para sa atin kasalanan ko naman for not saying it pero sana naisip din niya situation ko. That day nakunan ako sibrang sakit sobrang bigat. Nagkaayos nanaman kami lalaban sa problema but when he started working again he was different he became super close with his co workers ang saya niya. Like usap lang thru vc ginagawa namin pero hndi siya nagsasalita pagod Ing daw but kapag nagchachat siya sa gc nila ngiting ngiti. Palagi niya ko gusto na hiwalayan again pagod na daw siya buhayin ako kahit laha savings ko eh nsknya ne hndi ko na nga alam kung meron Nahihirapan ako kasi eversince mawala baby ko super suicidal thoughts ako. Ayoko magisa kaya sinisiksik ko sarili ko sknya. Currently job hunting pero ang tatagal panngbstart date ng work.