I’m finally leaving. I’m finally leaving the last place that would connect us.

I’m finally entering a brand new start. A place that finally won’t have a remnant of you.

For the past 4 years that we’ve been together, we were ALWAYS connected one way or another.

From academics, to organizations and extra curriculars, up until internship.

I knew after our graduation, things will be difficult. It wouldn’t be the same. I knew before, one way or another, we were bound to end.

Probably a premonition cause before graduation, we were already drifting apart.

I was already working and everything became more difficult. And then you started working too to which sealed the deal. Everything has totally changed.

And what’s ironic about all this is you made me promise to tell/inform the other if we date/meet someone new. But you broke it.

How convenient of you to find someone new in a new environment. Did you feel nostalgia? Cause as far as I can remember, that’s also how we started. Both freshies in a new environment.

You believe that exes can be friends while I believed that exes can never. You wanted us to forget everything that happened and be friends, which to me is unfair. How can I forget 4 years of my life? How can you forget 4 years of your life?

Even if it’s so fucking hard, I need to stand firm and cut you off my life and respect myself enough to let you go.

I know you wanted to talk and I didn’t let you. I know it’s kinda confusing cause I’m the one who disconnected, but at the same time the one who still wants to see you in some kind of way through our acquaintances and seemed like an attention seeker, who even drunk called you one November night. I’m confused too, don’t worry.

Until now, I keep convincing myself that I moved on. God knows how much I want to talk to you, how desperate I want you back, how I miss you so much.

But I’m finally resetting my life. A new life where roads won’t lead me to you. A new life where I can finally maybe forget about the last 4 years, like how you did.

I hope I finally forget you.