I don't know if you're still around or if you've moved on, but either way, I want to write this letter again to clarify my thoughts.

First and foremost, I apologize for letting you down. I'm sorry for what I did and for the things I said that hurt your feelings. I didn't intend to treat you that way. I acknowledge and understand the depth of your struggles and the impact of your previous relationship on you, but I wasn't aware that one mistake on my part could trigger that pain. Even though we're not in communication at the moment, you're always on my mind, and I pray to God that you can find it in your heart to forgive me.

Secondly, I'm not sure if you're aware of the words and actions you've let slip, but they genuinely hurt me too. Despite that, I still understand where your resentment towards me comes from. And because of that, I also forgive you. Don't worry because even though the outcome of our last conversation wasn't pleasant, you're still special to me.

After all that happened, I felt a decline in my mental health. Even during the times we talked, my struggles were present, but because you came into my life, even for a short period, I had something to look forward to each day, even during moments when I lost interest in everything. Now that we have no communication, it feels like a heavy blow to the head. I'm often nonchalant, but there are times when I suddenly burst into tears. You know how emotional I can be, right?

My prayer is also that you're doing well and in good spirits. Perhaps you're busy with your studies again; just keep going until you achieve your life goals. Avoid staying up too late. Take care wherever you go.