from 2/2022 I experienced a significant familial loss. my grandma who raised me passed. she was 96. led a great life. but this sent me into a deep depression for 2 years I literally did nothing but play xbox all day, everyday. shoutout warzone. in february of this year (2/24) precisely 2 years after moving to las vegas from philly I left the house I was living in which was a toxic environment. I joined a gym. I lost at my peak about 50 lbs. (from 245ish down to 197). currently sitting at about 205. my life has completely changed. my perspective has changed. while I lost most of my wordly goods and a conventional way of living...and committed to myself in a way I never thought possible. I'm in a better place mentally and spiritually and eternally grateful for this epoch. my current circumstances were my central fear for most of my life. from childhood. and now I embrace it because its led to growth I couldn't imagine. its a year I'll never forget. people have come into my life and some I've lost. I have a self-belief I've never had. an indomitable spirit. in february 2024 I started with nothing and began to rebuild my life. I'm still on this evolving journey. to anyone reading who may be struggling...just keep going. show up. even when you don't want to or feel like it. there is so much potential in every day, every decision, every conversation. the key to unlocking these realities is often simply showing up. get strong. stay strong. I'm rooting for ya!