I wanted to share the story my phimosis journey.

I’ve had phimosis pretty much all my life, in fact I’ve never seen the head of my penis. I was offered treatment as a child but my father refused. Just one of the many ways he fucked up my life. Of course when I was much younger I didn’t fully understand and this resulted in psychological problems and self enforced social isolation. I avoided contact with the opposite sex. Knowing I didn’t look like other boys I was embarrassed and afraid of their judgment. Although I’ve never received negative comments the seed was planted (no pun) and I was always worried next time I would be ridiculed. I’ve spoken to doctors about treatment several times down the years but they always instantly recommend circumcision which I decided against because physically I’ve had no problems or pain. But at 52, I’ve never had a meaningful relationship but I was always worried of a partners reaction.

I am much older and wiser now and unconcerned about what others think but I’m still thinking I should address this issue. I feel it would help my confidence going forward.

So this is it time to fix this. Hoping to avoid circumcision, I’m going to try tings and creams and hope I can finally see the head for the first time.

I just wanted to share my story and let me know if you want me to update on my progress.

Finally, if anyone finds they are in similar mental place I was, don’t worry. It never is as bad as you think.