Planning to wrap up my PhD in the next few months and graduate in May. Because of mental health issues, and personal reasons, I had an extremely difficult time with my PhD. Applied for postdocs with only 1 paper and as expected, getting rejections left and right, just as the holiday season is gearing up. It sucks to also be alone during this time. I got my 8th rejection, and feeling utterly dejected. I know I am ultimately responsible for my own actions but it sucks that I did not get any strong support from my committee or advisor, while everyone kept telling me that "you will be fine". I went from being one of the top students in undergrad to now barely making it. And as much as I love research and want to stay in academia, I am feeling in my bones that perhaps academia does not want or need me. After giving all this time, and effort, and everything, I feel like I have nothing to show for and have to somehow start looking for industry jobs in the next few months. This last semester was supposed to be a moment of joy to celebrate 6 years of hard work. All it will be is a bitter reminder of how low I have sunk. All my friends are getting multiple offers so I have nobody to even reach out to. So I just wanted to vent a little over here. I don't know what the future holds for me but it sucks so much to think that I have to say goodbye to something I genuinely love. Thanks for listening.