Ah- I have been feeling so defeated these past couple months… idk, I feel like I just haven’t made a ton of progress and am really lacking any sort of motivation. I’m a little home sick, but also know that I wouldn’t want to be home even if I could be. I don’t want to do anything, but know I need to do something, idk im just in a weird limbo lol. my project has already received funding thankfully, but im soso determined to earn it myself (and get a little raise).

ANYWAY, i just submitted my engineering GRFP that isn’t even due till tomorrow and am so proud of it. after tons of edits from my PI and lab mates, I finaaalllly feel like I did something I can be proud of. I submitted an app in undergrad and literally half assed it and did the whole thing the day of lol. Idk, I feel happy and really relieved. I just wanted to share it with people who actually know what the application is and the work it takes. even if i don’t get it, i know it is a stepping stone in improving my writing and general understanding of my thesis. YAYYYY, congrats to anyone else who also turned it in! i hope we all get it