I really just need words of encouragement, of love, and of things that have helped you heal. I’m so lost and so broken. I can’t sleep in my own bed because that’s where he used to sleep. Always at the bottom. I can’t handle the idea of not feeling him there anymore. We are two grand in debt for his medical bills and they couldn’t even save him. He had end stage liver failure. There’s nothing more that could be done, right? It was so sudden. Within two days. They suspect he had liver disease for a long time, and there were signs (his liver count was always high but my veterinarian said that seemed like the normal for him.) I miss him so much. So deeply. I’m empty. It’s a deep seeded pain that I’ve never experienced. There are no words. He was my therapy animal. He saved me from my depression as a teenager. That’s why we got him.

He was doped up on morphine when I said goodbye. I held him as he passed. I hope he could hear me thanking him. And that I loved him and always would. I’m so lost.

Any poems or sayings or words that helped you, please comment them. I feel so alone in my grief even though I’m not. I’ve never felt this before. He was my soul dog, and he left too soon. I’ll miss him forever.