of people who got to spend many years with their pets. it’s been five months since i said goodbye. it was cancer and it happened so fast. he was adopted and had FIV, but showed no signs of aging. we had five amazing years together but they flew by so quickly; i thought we had many more, at least five more. i imagined our future life together. he was my rock and my safe place, a comfort among the pain and chaos of life. i’m functioning okay but my heart is still so broken and i miss him so much. he always followed me around, talked back to me, sat on my lap. he slept beside me. it’s so unfair. i wish i could create more memories with him. he’s the most special cat i’ve ever met. and i know how much he loved me. i just feel cheated. i miss him with my whole being.