My sweet girl passed at age 13 at the end of April. It crushed me and continues to, but I have another dog and other, grown up responsibilities to deal with. So I grieve when I need to and keep going. What else can I do?

About a week after she passed, I found out my ex cheated on me. It was devastating. We had been together for 6 years. He admitted he took the loss of the dog too hard and used that as an excuse as to why he "spiraled". I was so angry. If anyone deserves to spiral, it's me. I had her since she was barely 8 weeks old. She was MINE.

Then I get a call from my father today who is in AA, and told me he relapsed because he couldn't get the images of her passing out of his head (she had a cardiac even at home and passed and he was there at the time.)

This absolutely set me off. Stop using the loss of MY DOG as an excuse for your shitty behavior. I don't even have words for whow I feel right now. Don't they know how bad I wanted to lose it? To not give a fuck about anything else? I LOST MY SOUL DOG. SHE WAS WITH ME THROUGH EVERYTHING. But sure, clearly it was a lot harder on them, right? /s

I feel like I'm going fucking crazy.