My little girl is 13, and it is unfortunately time. I called an in-home euthanasia vet Thursday evening because she went very suddenly downhill and I'm honestly surprised she's made it to today. I rescued her about 11 years ago, when I was freshly 18. She and I moved out on our own together, she's been with me through every major life event. She was even in my wedding! She is my best friend.

My husband and I started dating a little over 8 years ago, and she quickly became his dog too.

I know everyone grieves differently, but I'm so upset. I'm alone holding my girl, soaking up the time I have with her (21 hours left now). I obviously cannot stop crying. I'm changing diapers and trying to soothe her as she is struggling to get comfortable at times and is increasingly confused (she has dementia). My husband has been very helpful for the most part, and is clearly devastated too, but last night he played video games for a couple hours while I laid alone crying in bed with my/our dog, and today he's been playing video games for most of the day (it's 1pm).

I know I shouldn't be upset/hurt/disappointed by his behavior (again, everyone grieves differently) but I am. I am so broken right now. So incredibly devastated that my sweet girl is struggling and that I didn't get longer with her, and that tomorrow morning I have to say goodbye forever.

I just wish that he would be with us, spend all of what little time she has together.

My heart is broken.