jasper was the bestest, and sweetest boy you could ever meet. never barked at people or dogs. just wanted to be pet and loved. he was fine on wednesday, had the best last day. thursday i had to say goodbye to him. my first dog. i know he wasn’t going to live forever but i thought i would have more time with him, see him become an old dog, with white around his sweet face. i wanna scratch his head, and kiss his face, and rub the bridge of his nose and feel that lil bump he had. i’m sitting on my couch writing all this and all i want is him to come lay on my feet like he did, look at me all concerned bc im crying. his bed is empty, and i miss my puppy. i don’t want his smell to leave, my stinky boy. i was never lonely with him. i wish i got to take him on hikes, and take him to the beach more; he loved the beach. i wish i brought him on my bed and cuddled him yesterday morning before the vet. i wish i got to love him more.