I got a foster dog to help me deal with my grief, and decided I was going to adopt her pretty soon after I lost my last dog (3 weeks ago Ollie was PTS). She has helped so much. But she attacked my mums younger dog (details are in my post history if you’re interested but I don’t want to repeat it again here) and essentially I can’t keep her because I’m not trained in this and I’m too scared she will grab her again to even let them be in the same room with each other without holding the little one. I created such a bond with this dog and her with me and now I feel like I’m grieving two dogs at once because the foster needs to go to another foster carer who has no other animals.

If I didn’t have my mums dog, it wouldn’t be a question and I would keep her. But I can’t. It hurts so much. I don’t want her to think I’m betraying her and that she isn’t a good dog and I don’t love her. This is going to be so hard.