I put on happy weight when I entered my relationship two years ago. Went from being a dancer on my feet literally working out 8 hours a day to serving and now to a very sedentary job. I knew I had gained some and began working out off and on about a year ago. My last weigh in was 146 over a month ago and i made some serious diet changes, not making myself hungry but cutting bread almost entirely, avoiding sweets, I already had a pretty good diet so it was more about portion control which I am working on. But then today - after a 12 hour fast for the test - I weighed in at 154. My highest number EVER. Im a big advocate of ignore the scale, focus on how you feel but frankly, i dont feel good either. I tried on pants in two stores this week and hated ALL OF THEM. I am 32 and 5’3 and just feeling so lost and discouraged. My fiancé is fit and sexy and loves me as i am but I am so scared of this downward trend continuing especially if/when we have kids. I just want to love the way I look or at least be ok with it. I end up in leggings or sweatpants because i feel like my body doesnt look good. Found out i could have hypothyroid after an ultrasound and the bloodwork today will clarify which i guess would be a relief to know its not me its my hormones, but what if its not that? Just needed to vent idk will read and appreciate any kind words or advice you wonderful people always offer.