So very recently I've been packing on the muscles and hitting the gym hard. My fitness has been pretty important to me for the last decade or so, but I really got in to being muscular when my ex and I split a couple years ago. I love being muscular but he wanted me petite and toned. I got used to being petite and toned.

Fast forward to recently and I have been getting a lot of comments on my physique. Now this isn't new per se, I have always been the "for person" at work and such but the little self conscious part of me that wanted to be that skinny and toned girl is cringing.

I was out with my current BF, tagging along to his weekend outdoor passion. Always tons of other guys around, it's a group sport. Well I was off by myself while he played a match and I saw some guys off to the side looking my direct. I overhead them laughing and one guys was like, "Yeah man I bet she could beat me at arm wrestling."

I hate to admit it but I immediately got a little self conscious. My BF was like damn straight you can, bet he's just jealous cause you're jacked babe. Very supportive, but I wish my brain was just as supportive 🙄

Fast forward to yesterday. I was at my gym, when I was done with my workout I noticed a guy that I swap words with on occasion. I hadn't seen him in a minute so I swung by to see how he was. Ensue light chit-chat. Then he proceeds to go, "You're looking pretty buff! Is that what you're going for?" I was a little taken a back and again, inner me cringed. I laughed and said whatever happens, happens. Usually this guy has been very gym bro, "looking jacked! Do you do shows? Etc" with his comments on occasion, but this one just hit different than usual.

I feel like I am getting more comments on my physique lately and I am just trying to get my brain behind a more, "Damn right I'm muscular, strong and awesome!" way of thinking. . .but damn is it hard sometimes.

Not really looking for validation, but needed to vent cause I am sure at least a few ladies here can understand the feeling.

Anyway, if no one has told you today; you're doing great. You got this shit. Have a good workout! Have a good day!