Where to start? Stats are 5’0”, 112 lbs, 34yo. Arthritis, scoliosis, crappy lungs. This is the highest I’ve ever weighed in my life. I told myself when I reached a “recovered” weight I would try switch from WL to just toning up and trying to stay at this weight but work on composition. I have IBS and a lot of pain issues (the splotchy back is from sitting with a heating pad). Im 2 lbs over what my doctors wanted me to be at, so I’m trying to ignore my brain and ask for basic help in where to start composition-wise so I don’t fall back to WL thinking. Aesthetics aside, I literally feel physically unhealthy and am in constant pain, so I’m very sedentary. Motivation is a huge struggle. I have already been to doctors and gotten all the medical advice so I don’t need that. I just need ideas for where to start to feel better. Do I focus on food? Or on certain exercise? Both? None? I’m clueless and can’t afford a gym. I just want to feel good in my body. Can’t talk with anyone because weight wise with clothes they say I look fine. But I don’t FEEL fine. As soon as you mention an ED past, nobody takes how I feel seriously and chalk it up to being disordered. Help🥲