Trigger warning. If u don`t feel good right now don`t continue to read.

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I live with pelvic floor dysfunction since 7 years. It all started after unprotected stop and go sex session. I was extremely anxious and drunk that night and while we had sex I lost my erection and squeezed my pelvis like crazy trying to maintain my erection and to climax. In retrospect it was so crazy but it happened.

Since then I have an incredible tight feeling in my pelvis and the bloodflow to my genital area is extremely low. I can`t feel my cock everything is numb and cold or dry and hot...I have this numb, rubbery soft penis between my legs no libido pain in my anus fucking tight lower abs can`t pee properly I even can`t breath properly because of the tension.

Every movement I make or sitting down or walking round..everything is so uncomfortable and painfull. The worst thing for me is that I feel basically castrated. I have erectile dysfunction and sex is something without fun but more anxiety to have sex.

Before this shit happened I made my experiences with women and sexuality gives you quality of life. I`m still attrakted to woman but I don`t know how to have a relationship with this condition. The last time I had sex is nearly 5 years ago. I avoid woman..I just don`t know what to do. This shit is so demoralizing and inhuman and I feel like I can`t live like that the rest of my life. I tried a lot of things to get better and at the moment I try triggerpoint release and other things but if that is also not working I don`t know what to do anyore. My brothers have relationships my friends have everyone talking about sex and love and if they asked me why I`m single I don`t know what to answer...I talked withj my family and a good friend about my condition but no one can understand this.

While I`m writing this I feel like sitting on a stone so tight my pelvis is...Every day I`m waking up and going to sleep with this...it`s constantly there...I lost all quality of life..I can`t enjoy the sweet things in life ...I feel like giving up at some point no one should live like that this is just horrible. I feel like there is no way out of it. I`m 31 years old and I lost the best years of my life. This is not a life.

Sorry for bringing you guys down with my negativity but after so many years in pain and dysfunctions I feel weak as fuck and totally destroyed. Nothing never worked for me so it`s very difficult to stay positive.

Are here guys with sexual dysfunction and similar symptoms? How do you live with this?