So I found out the reason why I’ve been tight all these years and having uncomfortable and painful sex. On top of having a reactive bladder from this issue and peeing constantly. My urologist said I needed to do pelvic floor therapy and talk to a therapist about my sa. But the issue is how am I supposed to get better in that aspect when I literally can’t remember I was told it probably started when I was a baby but that I told my dad when I was 7 through dolls. While he was in court I was in like some therapy to figure out what happened. He pleaded guilty and got 5 years anyways I remember none of it. I acted out in a way in 3rd grade that I’m pretty sure was in relation to the sa I was very sexual with other girls at 3rd grade and btw I’m a girl. So obviously trauma was definitely there when I was younger but now that I’m older it’s like I can’t remember the only thing I can think of is what I did in 3rd grade Is probably what he did to me but it’s like I still don’t know the entirety of it. I just don’t know if because I can’t remember I can’t fully recover.