I really don’t know what to think right now except that I failed. She was horrifically sexually abused by her dad’s brother for years and while I fought tooth a nail to bring forth justice and light to the situation. My ex and his family were alienating my kids from me, smearing my name all in an attempt to cover up the hell they more than likely knew my child was going through. Fast forward to age 10, she’s out of control. Plain and simple. I’m at a point sometimes where I wonder if I’m mentally capable of raising her but definitely don’t wanna send her back to her abusive narcissistic deranged dad and his family smh. But she’s been giving me and my siblings hell. It’s not even funny. Well anyways she locks herself in the bathroom today threatening to burn whoever comes in there and my sister calls the police once they come they cuff her and a few mins later they’re saying she said she’s suicidal smh. Now she’s at the hospital. And of course my ex is mad at me. But hell im mad at me. I just don’t know if im coming or going…