my Daughter is 11, her mom and i split up in 2015, we ended up with joint custody when school was on she stayed with mom and i had 2-3 weekends a month shared holidays and a 50/50 schedule in the summer and christmas holidays. this schedule was thats way because of distance with a stipulation that if i ever moved to the same town the custody order could be reviewed, since ive moved covid started right after, thats when visits started gettjng missed as i was told she cant come to my home (which i later found out she had no right to do as im immediate family, once i called her out on it she changed it to shes not feeling well, that was almost every second visit i was to have, slowly my daughter and i drifted apart as i was never able to talk to her when she "couldnt come" and if i did mom would not leave her alone in front of me, the whole time i was under the impression courts were only open for emergencies which was correct, i felt helpless id go pick her up andno one would come to the door no text responses nothing, 2020 is when i moved and since then my ex wife has made my life hell, she has slowly alienated my daughter from me as the missed visits kept going on until eventually my daughter didnt care to see me and now treats me like shit, never answers my messages or my facetime calls refuses to come yet im not allowed to talk to her to try and see if i can convince her and if i happen to be able to theres mom budding into to conversation and always working against me. christmas 2021 was the final straw for me i decided to file a motion to change in ontario court, since then my access to my kid has gone from 2 out of 3 missed to absolutely nothing, she has to this day only facilitated 3 short visits, i even tried to agree to a temp order to get visits rolling and i got the first one then no more, she claims she cant get my daughter to go, in court ofcourse she made claims i was a drug dealer🙄 that im abusive and my daughter has major anxiety causeof it, all false i am a good dad, this has been dragging in so long that mentally my anxiety is at a dangerous level im at the point where i cant not be upset, and i had a medation meeting last week and i lost my cool as i heard her spew her lies, i mean i literally fucking snapped full out panic attack childrens lawyer was in the meeting aswell and frankly they got an earfull aswell as they have basically cut my time to 2 hour visits and the first one they supervised, i have done nothing wrong here and dont know what else to do the court is totally into my ex and her acting and ive just not been able to get a dam break as its only gotten worse, my health is at risk now as ive already had a mild stroke a frw months back and just 2 days ago was told i may have had a very mild heart attack, I feel im in a battle i cant win, my daughter hates me and shes all i had, i made the decision today to give up and walk away i cant endure anymore of this its torture, i would rather be absent than have my daughter grow up watching me and mom argue over her, i know im going to fucking miss her but i dont have any choice as the courts seem biased and pro mom and my health just cannot take it, im angry and ive stopped hiding it i just dont see any other option but to cut my loss nd just go