So to begin I've had sleep paralysis since I was about six years old. But after looking back into all of it.. I often wonder if it means something else.

The first time I had it I could barely move, and a woman approached me. She then began screaming over and over again, screaming the words "Murderer" and anytime I would have this happen, I would wake up in beads of sweat, breathing heavily and either screaming or crying.

The second time I was nine and a young girl was on top of me jumping up and down on the bed playfully and suddenly something entered inside the room and began chopping her up with an ax.. I could hear everything. Her screams. Her crying.

The third time when I was thirteen it happened I would see a man and suddenly feel as though I was pushed off a building and began falling downwards.

The fourth time when I was nineteen I heard a loud argument and gunfire.. later to find out that my apartment has been the place of a massacre two years prior.

And recently, I was asleep in the family room and on CNN my Mom had been watching about the Titan submersible being missing and something began to crawl on the walls, it was all black and let out this cry, and it began to crawl towards me. I called out for my Dog and he came towards me, staring at me then turned his head towards the creature and began agressively growling at it and began going crazy. It then came towards me and made me face the television screen and it whispered in my ear. "They're not where they think they are.." and my Dog just kept going crazy, growling, but he too was afraid... What felt like hours I finally awoke.. to my Dog laying beside me staring at me and making sure I was alright..

I've become convinced that maybe these aren't just sleep paralysis dreams and maybe I'm full on experiencing either astral projection or maybe I really am crazy.. it's been scaring me, because I never know when it's going to happen. It just happens. And I'm trapped there.