About 30 years ago, an event led to me discovering I had an entity attached to me.

I called him the faceless, everyone else referred to him as my "friend". He was always protective of me. Towards others he was sometimes protective and sometimes antagonistic, but usually he was just neutral. I could always "feel" him if I tried to.

At one point he became so antagonistic towards a roommate that I reached out to a local group of paranormal investigators. At the most extreme, he chased her through the house to her room and audibly laughed in my voice on the other side of her door after she slammed it. He shoved another person's shoulder, poked another person's back, and would occasionally cause things in a closed closet to fall off shelves. I met with a husband/wife, a woman who designed spirit boards, and another woman I can't quite remember. I told them the whole story about the faceless and how he came into my life and what the current events were. After the meeting, the husband followed me out to my bike and shared his personal insight with me, which I really thought was cool of him. They were supposed to meet up with my roommate to get her perspective, but I think either she or they never followed through and I never heard back from them.

I can't say for sure exactly when this happened, but I've lost that sense of connection. I can't feel him anymore. I can say that once I noticed the loss of his presence is when the null began. I've never felt like I had any particular personal affinity towards anything spiritual or paranormal, and TBH I feel silly even saying that. I've always been a (hopeful) skeptic. However, spiritual/paranormal things seemed enhanced (?) whenever I was around. Ouija/spirit boards worked better if I was in the room, tarot cards did things I don't understand, people with the sight saw things more clearly or things they hadn't seen before. Just stuff that seemed weird to me but I eventually just started taking for granted.

Ever since I stopped feeling the faceless, it's the exact opposite. I think the event that really made it sink in for me was I went on a popular and successful guided ghost tour, and because of me I feel like 12 people wasted their money. There was zero activity, which for this tour was extremely unusual. I could tell the guide was completely baffled, and even offered everyone on the tour a raincheck at next to nothing. He tried one last spot, a location that isn't usually on the tour, but he was obviously pretty desperate. As my own experiment, I hung out at a spot on the route back to the tour guide's office, and sure enough they all said they had various levels of activity/experiences at the spot where I wasn't present. I spoke to the guide afterwards and asked if he had any insight or thoughts on my conclusion, but he hadn't heard of anything like it before.

I've tried a couple of other minor experiments, and they've shown pretty much the same results.

One other weird thing I've noticed is I can't go into shops that sell crystals, at least not the ones around the Sedona area. My daughter is pretty witchy (or at least likes to think she is lol) and so we went into a couple shops up there, and I almost immediately get dizzy and nauseous. I asked one of the shop owners about it, and she suggested I hold something raw and ferrous (like raw iron ore or a similar mineral). I've tried it, and it helps a bit, but I'm still very uncomfortable, like I can feel the dizziness/nausea just surrounding me without actually touching me.

To be honest, I feel kinda dumb even opening up on the topic, but I miss my "friend" and I don't know enough about the paranormal or spiritual or whatever to do anything about it. I guess I'm hoping someone can help me figure out if I'm right that I create this spiritual void around me, or if it's something else. I'd love it if someone could tell me how to reconnect with the faceless, but my heart tells me that's not a real option for some reason. I dunno, maybe that's just my fear.

And if I am correct and I do create this null zone, maybe someone can give me some advice on how to make it useful. If I'm right and the faceless is just gone, maybe I can at least find purpose in what's left after his absence.

Sorry for dumping all this lol. I guess I feel a certain way and don't really have anyone to talk to about it. Thanks for reading if you got this far. 😅