So to begin I've had sleep paralysis since I was about six years old, or at least that's what I used to think it was. It wasn't until recently after looking back into all of it.. I often wonder if this all could be something else entirely.

The first time I ever began having it was when I was around six years old, I went to bed as normal and went right to sleep.. that morning I tried to get out of bed but I could barely move and I couldn't scream out for my Mom, a woman approached me she was tall and had long dark brown hair, I can't exactly remember what she was wearing... She then began screaming over and over again, it was probably the loudest scream I had ever heard, she was screaming the words "Murderer" and anytime i would have this happen, I would wake up in beads of sweat, breathing heavily and either screaming or crying.

The second time I was nine and a young girl was on top of me jumping up and down on the bed playfully and suddenly something entered inside the room and began chopping her up with an ax.. I could hear everything. Her screams. Her crying.

The third time when I was thirteen it happened I would see a man dressed all up in a suit, he would fix his tie and then suddenly it would feel as though I was pushed off a building and began falling downwards. I would then experience a loud banging noise, almost like an explosion and almost always this would awaken me..

The fourth time was when I was nineteen and in this episode, I would hear a loud argument and then gunfire, then a lady would appear to me crying out for her baby, completely covered in blood.. I later found out that in my apartment, in my room that this had been the place of a mass homicide three years prior. Three people had been killed... Including a woman and her infant..

And then quite recently about last week, I was asleep in the family room and on CNN my Mom had been watching about the Titan submersible being missing and something began to crawl on the walls, it was all black, had claws and was somewhat furry, it stared at me and began to let out this cry, and it began to crawl towards me. I called out for my Dog and my Dog came towards me, staring at me seeing if I was okay then he turned his head towards the creature and began agressively growling at it and began going crazy. It then came towards me and made me face the television screen and it whispered in my ear. "They're not where they think they are.." and my Dog just kept going crazy, growling, but he too was afraid... What felt like hours I finally awoke.. to my Dog laying beside me staring at me and making sure I was alright..

I've become convinced that maybe these aren't just sleep paralysis dreams and maybe I'm full on experiencing either astral projection or maybe I really am crazy.. it's been scaring me, because I never know when it's going to happen. It just happens. And I'm trapped there. So.. am I truly overthinking all of this, could these just be dreams or am I really astral projecting..? I truly don't know... Maybe I don't even wanna know the truth honestly.