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Being the eldest doesnāt automatically make you the favorite of your parents. Iām not great at writing, but I need to get these thoughts out. Two years ago, we bought a house using my Dadās retirement fund as the down payment. Our agreement was that Iād use my PAGIBIG (government housing loan) while heād contribute payments from his retirement fund. However, he didnāt stick to the plan; he stopped working. I handled all the paperwork, spent a lot on hidden costs while acquiring the house. This whole thing was my Dadās dream, not mine. But as the eldest, I went along.
My younger brother, the favorite, the one my parents always support despite his failures, had no idea we were buying a house until we were about to move in. We had a fight because he felt left out of this dream house. Out of anger, I told him, āI envy you. I wish we could switch places, so I wouldnāt know the hardships and frustrations I went through just to fulfill Dadās dream, a dream I never wanted.ā
My mental health is at rock bottom. Iām planning to quit my job; I canāt eat or sleep, and itās affecting my physical health. When I shared this with my parents, my Dad guilt-tripped me, saying, āSo what do you want? Should we just give up on this house?!ā He used guilt as a weapon. My Mom, sheās a whole other chaotic story. Recently, she mentioned that if she knew our lives would turn out like this, she wouldnāt have married my Dad. I thought I was numb, but those words hit me hard, like I was a kid again feeling pain in my chest.
I partly blame myself, maybe itās an eldest child thing; I feel like I shouldāve fixed it. At this point, itās easier to believe Iām alone in this life. The only upside is I donāt live with them anymore. But I need to brace myself for the emotional roller coaster thatāll come once I quit my job because thatās another battle Iāll have to face alone.
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