Little body context: I'm 26 year old skinny bit fem looking guy and I'm attracted to chubby fat bearded middle aged men

So I took my vacation from work went to my parents to chill out in winter and I guess I was feeling bored and horny and I texted a old (straight fuck Buddy we chatted never meet) who was living almost 300km away from me and he told me I should visit him so he gave me his location it was 8 hour ride and I said fuck it gonna be fun.

So he gave me location A where he's supposed to pickup and when I arrived that asshole said ok take a taxi for 30 more minutes and reach here it seems like very hostile place and very close to Balochistan borders . All red flgs

So I said fuck it worst thing was I lied to everyone my boyfriend family and if I were to be kidnapped or something bad had happened no one had any clue about my whereabouts. Waited on bus stop and told guy something comeup and came back home somehow this guy had idea about me heading back he texted me why are you going back I blocked him but I guess he was tracking my location (I never shared anything to him )

Finally I got back home around 4 am in morning still feel shitty about what I did because of boredom