My PMDD symptoms have exasperated my anxiety and depression to the point that I'm suicidal, and I've leaned on him so much that he told me he wish he could feel the way he used to, he's lost compassion, and he resents when I need reassurance now. I've been a wreck, and trying to not let him see me be depressed and hide my emotions (which in turn as made me feel like I'm just being fake to myself) but he's seen through me and now he's depressed.

I really love him and gave up a lot to be with him, and we moved 20 hours from our hometown together. I'm really not in a position to "just leave," I would like to be an adult in trying to solve this.

This is my first relationship living with someone and the first time I moved away from home, so I feel like there's a big learning curve I might be missing.