Miss ko na kiligin, gusto ko na magkacrush ulit, but no one is doing it for me. And it's not that I'm not seeking out other sapphics. There are so many women out there with traits I find attractive but I find that people's perspectives in life and their relationship with themselves always put me off.

Maybe because graduate na ako sa "I can fix her" phase ko. I no longer obsess over rejections because I've tamed my wound of not being chosen. I'm no longer interested in making myself small. I know what I want in life and I'm working towards getting there. And at 27 years old, I feel like I should be allowed to expect more from people in my preferred age range.

Hindi rin naman ako perfect, there are probably some unhealed wounds that will get triggered somewhere down the line, but I've done a lot of inner work and just want someone who has done the same or is well on their way there. I want someone who isn't scared of actually feeling their feelings. I want someone who is willing to experience life fully, with all its ups and downs.

Are my standards unrealistic?