I know people say that the spark or the interest or the honeymoon period always comes to an end. But I have always said that I'd rather be not loved at all if I couldnt be loved wholly.

We've been together for a year and more, we got toxic so we broke up. We talked about everything and i mean EVERYTHING and where we could improve, we said we'd try again.

I feel like my perception is warped now, I feel like I dont feel the love from my partner that she used to show me. In little things, in being curious about me and my day, and about caring for me. We have communicated on this several times but it's turning five months again soon and I feel like I just keep repeating myself.

i'm not asking for her to spend every weekend with me (we used to do this and this was partly the reason why we got so toxic, cancelled plans with others etc) i just feel like checking in with your partner at the end of the day or having a quick call just to tell them you miss them shouldnt be that big of an ask..

i dont know where to go from here.