I recently moved back into my parent’s house (saving money for starting to attend an acting school in the summer) and as much as I like to be a helpful person, them asking me to stop what i’m doing and help out with something is IMMENSELY frustrating.

My 100 yr old grandmother lives with us, and this morning, my dad asked me to make her breakfast and eat with her because he has rehearsal… it just made me want to burst into tears. I struggle so much with saying no to things people ask of me already, but I feel like my housing situation is reliant on me blocking out my feelings and forcing myself to be useful.

And, like I said, I’m happy to help out! But at the same time, being pulled out of any plans or tasks i’m doing just to ask something of me feels like pulling teeth.

idek… I have no conscience choice over feeling this way, but it takes over my whole body every time it happens and I end up feeling super guilty afterwards for having been upset. It makes me feel like a brat :(

I’ve done quite a bit of personal research into PDA autism, and I’m curious to know if my feelings resonate with other people who fit into this subtype?

I guess its similar to the commonly relatable “agh, I was GONNA do that until you TOLD me to and now I don’t WANT to anymore >:(“ sentiment, but just turned up to 11 in terms of irrationally emotional responses. 😬