25F I’ve been diagnosed w pcos since I was 13 years old. They put me on bc, told me it’d be hard to have kids so on and so forth. When I got diagnosed I was pretty overweight but I’ve maintained 160 lbs (I’m 5’7) for years now. It’s easy for me to gain but not very hard for me to lose weight as long as I eat less. About 6 months ago I decided to get off bc, it was causing me to bleed a lot (one of my Drs tried to say it was my Pcos but the moment I got off bc the bleeding stopped and my periods were completely regular) and when I mean regular I mean better than it’s ever been my whole life….only missing my period by a day at MOST. I knew this was a good sign, and let my dr know I want to get pregnant soon and if I should take anything to help. He prescribed me metformin which I took for about 3 months then life got hectic and I started to forget, eventually not taking it at all. But I wasn’t really thinking about getting pregnant quickly cause I’ve tried to keep my expectations low to avoid the pain of possibly never having my own child. Well about a week ago, I realized I was 4 days late on my period which like I said…was out of the ordinary based off my cycles for 6 months prior, took a pregnancy test and I’ve never seen a test line light up so quick. I’m actually pregnant. I’m overwhelmed with joy. First day of my last period was the 12th of nov so I know I’m very early on. I have an over the phone appointment with a nurse on the 3rd of January and then I’ll get an appt with a dr to get into the details I guess. Seems like so long to wait, and my nerves and paranoia are getting the best of me. I just want to be excited and I want to be happy to be a mom without constantly worrying that I’m about to miscarry, any time I get even slightly wet I run to the bathroom, my heart sinks anytime I wipe, and of course the cramps that come w early pregnancy..I want this child so badly it makes my soul ache, but I know the risks and chances given my condition so part of me feels like I’m almost disconnecting to avoid any future disappointment. How did you guys cope with the fear?