While I'm aware that PCOS can cause infertility, that's not what I'm referring to in this post. I'm referring to the fact that doctors seem to "guess" that you are infertile just because you have PCOS. So here I am with my rant.

Over 10 years ago I was told by a team of infertility doctors that I was infertile. I would never be able to have kids because my ovaries don't work. Even if I was giving a medication to induce ovulation, that I would still come up empty. I don't remember if they did much of anything as far as test related, as I was initially sent to them for a D&C due to uterine hyperplasia. I put kids out of my mind though and moved on with my life.

I was not diagnosed with PCOS then, and several doctors later, was still not diagnosed with PCOS despite me having clear signs of it. My previous Gyno told me that he's sure I have it, put me on birth control, told me to lose weight (like they always do) and called it a day. When he left the practice, I got a new Gyno who has been fabulous. She listens, diagnosed me with not only PCOS, but insulin resistance, found out my thyroid is underperforming, and found out my metabolism is pretty much shot which is why I can't lose weight on just diet/exercise alone.

Now here's where this makes me angry.... I'm a religious person and have always had in the back of my mind that if I was ever supposed to have kids, that God would find a way regardless of whatever doctors say to me. So when I started having hormone effects while on metformin, I had a few instances where I thought maybe pregnancy was possible. My husband would gently remind me what my previous doctors told me about my infertility though. But since I started getting my periods back in order and actually feeling the effects of hormones in general, my last appointment with my doctor, I brought up everything that I was feeling recently and how it's "different" to me (being a 37yr old woman, makes me feel awkward) and just wanted reassurance that everything I was feeling was normal.

My doctor was never one to agree with my previous doctors about my infertility and would always promptly give me a pregnancy test if she felt it was warranted. This sometimes would spark discussions between my doctor and my husband. But this last visit threw me for a loop when I went in to get results from previous labs/ultrasound and she announced that I was indeed ovulating and she's sorry that the doctors lied to me by saying that I NEVER would. Over 10 years of my life just.... blip... All the doctors I've had after the infertility specialists, never caring to check, would just get my medical history and carry on without a thought. How do people go into a profession and NOT care about their patients? How can you tell someone they can NEVER have kids and be WRONG?! I'm just SOO ANGRY!!! PCOS needs more research and needs to be placed under doctors radar with up to date information so they aren't screwing over peoples lives with false information!

I'm sure I'm not even alone in this.... but I have literally zero faith in the medical industry now. What a joke...