I mean I don't have a choice other than not do it Let me add some back story too. 22 yo f Someone overdosed that I allegedly touched hands with and I'm facing 15. It's a common wealth so I don't need legal advice. I do have a good lawyer. The only thing I'm really worried about at this point is NOT detoxing when I'm sentenced. 15 years? Cool as long as I don't gotta detox in a pod with 15-20 other females. I've been clean for 3 days. I've had one sub strip and 2 8 mg wafers and it hasn't touched it. I reached out to the one family member I have, she adopted my daughter. There's a lot going on in this post but my main question is Why tf aren't the subs touching it ? I'm shaking pouring sweat haven't slept in going on 72 hours other than a few minutes. I want to get clean let me add that. I've wanted to for a long time even before this. Ive been using consistently for ab a year. Multiple 30s a day. I started on scripts before 30s. I've never did heroine. Heroines hard to find in Kentucky hollers, mostly meth. So jus 30s.i did test em for Fetty I was scared to get tranq. I've taken vitamin c I've called rehabs I've taken mussel relaxers and subs Im dosing by my self btw I can't rlly go to a sub clinic either bc location and I also wrecked my car 2weeks before 12 beat my door down. So ig this is rock bottom ? Are subs not gonna work for me? Bc idk if I can cope w my bones feeling like they don't belong in my body. Pls help me. Ps: I understand the effect of my actions. If I didn't allegedly touch hands with the boy, he wouldn't of got it. His mom misses him bc of me (allegedly) My lawyers finna tweak bout this post but ive made peace with the fact I owe a lot of my life for the ones that ended up dead bc of 30s I touched and passed along.