So I’m the M half of a MF couple, A little background We used to both play in the lifestyle together playing mostly with singles. It was great , there was no issues up until our last playmate. It started with just him and I being “bros” and slowly led to him joining us in bed, it was over about 6 months that we played and pretty often , until I noticed that feelings were starting to develop. (Pretty amateur stuff I know your probably thinking) so I got scared that it would hurt our relationship and cut him out. After about a month I found out that indeed there were feelings mixed in but from all parties involved. I guess that scared her as well and she no longer wants to be part of the lifestyle , however I never wanted to stop. So after about a few more months I finally found the perfect opportunity to talk to her about me wanting to get back in the lifestyle. It ended with an agreement, I can play safely but she does not want to know about it, (I know it’s hard to believe but that is the truth) (She’s pretty “vanilla” in bed, and I’m assuming she knows I need more) I’ve explained this to other couples and singles and they seem to not believe me. Does anybody have any advice to go about this ?