Tomorrow I'll be attending my local Episcopal church for the first time, after a lot of research, and if you feel like sending up a prayer for me, I'd really appreciate it. That it will be a good fit for me. That I'll be able to commune with God there, and, equally important, that I'll find community there among the congregation. That I'll connect with the style of worship and the message. That I won't feel the way I've felt at most other churches throughout my life: bored, frustrated, uncomfortable, disengaged, insulted, disrespected, etc.

I already know that they're affirming of LGBTQ people and that they're involved in social justice work in the community, which is why I'm going there even though I'm not sure their worship is for me. They're the only church in this town that fully embraces and accepts me for who I am, that I know of, and the only one that won't alienate me with their stances on other human rights issues. These things are very important to me in a faith community. And it's important to me to have a faith community, preferably outside of the internet, and since I can't reliably make it right now to the UCC or Mennonite church to see if they'd be better for me, this is the best I can do.

I'm nervous about it, not for any social anxiety reasons, but simply because I want so badly for it to be a good fit.