It causes so much anxiety, depression, anger. I got alot I could say but it's hard to even think where to start. Some of the things I'm thinking right now are bugging me alot but I don't want to say them because I don't want it to be true if it even is which I doubt. I've been looking more into Christianity lately but everytime I see something about it I get this weird kind of angry/annoyed feeling that I can't explain. I have intrusive thoughts of me saying bad things that I don't want to say. I honestly know as of right now if I died I'm going to hell. It just makes me want to drink and have fun instead of worrying all the time. I know it's not supposed to be like that but it always has been for me and I wish it wasn't