I've been wrestling with "sexual sin" lately. I grew up in conservative Christianity and the Bible still seems pretty clear to me, but there are things that my wife and I both want to do that we've been struggling with because it's not the traditional/ideal version. Another complication is my wife works for our church, which is somewhat conservative.

A year ago, my wife cheated on me and hid it for months, even though sharing her is always something I've told her I wanted to do. The hiding made it hurt. By the time she told me, I was conflicted and she was full of remorse. We've been working through it, keeping the conversation open, studying to see what the Bible says, but knowing we're not perfect and never claim to be.

Then, two nights ago, my wife told me she'd like to open the marriage... to a degree. And she said "only if you're serious about being into this, and not just pretending or fantasizing." I gave her the green light and she immediately started telling me about experiences she'd like to have. I couldn't be more excited!! It brings me so much joy..... but will I look back and regret this?