This is really going to be more of a confessional than an ad, but if it resounds with you and you want to talk with someone else who's been in it, I'd love to chat.

This place has been many different things for me

• It's been an escape
• I've found love
• Pain
• Great friends
• Sadness
• Exploration
• Excitement
• Booty
• And it can be haunted, lots of ghosts all over the place, sometimes me too.

It's been a lot more than that too, but you need to start somewhere.

This place is also addicting. When you meet a person and things just CLICK. There's nothing like it. I also became addicted to the risk of it. I fucking love the risk, maybe it's because things are just so samey day to day that this big of a disruption to that is a way to feel things again, but it's a helluva drug.

That feeling of having a reason to sneak off and respond, sending voice/video messages, sneaking in a good night call, it's wild and my whole self reacts just thinking of it.

That feeling of being wanted for you.

I love when you kinkily/sexually align with someone in ways you never have before and you get to make that special bubble that only you two live in. That parallel world built just for you.

This place has taught me so much about myself in that way which is a double edged sword, ie what's the use of finding out you're an exhibitionist if there's no one to watch you?

There are regrets too, connections lost, bonds broken, and they stick with me. I'll never forget them.

What I'm looking for, someone nerdy af with interested that they love to talk about. I love to learn and I want to know what brings you joy. I really hate the small talk, I'm bad at it, and I will do my best to ask questions and keep the convo going, please make the same effort. It would be best if you think things like farts and poop jokes are funny because apparently I'm a juvenile. Be willing to jump to another app, I want the voice/video/calls. You'll probably see my butt, or minimally the crook of my knee close up so it looks like a butt.

Thanks for listening.