Hey there, y'all! This is my first time trying this ~

I've spent my life trying my best to be a Good person. Siding with, and behaving in accord to a high moral standing. Denouncing and vilifying every behavior I understood to be harmful. And I've also spent my life feeling thoroughly beating myself down for Clearly not Feeling these moral values; only repeating them and enforcing them upon myself.

Trying to justify yourself, and breaking at the sight of every instance of Not having a justification for your mistakes has worn me down and wasted me away. Here... I am trying to have someone to whom I can admit these immoralities, and find acceptance and kinship.

Truth is, I have no valid reason to be here. I mean, rather than single. A mixture of fear and comfort that prevents me from ending a relationship I should end, added to a thrill of cheating. I've made up excuses and selectively remembered things to justify it like I'm a poor bastard, but truth is, I am here, ready to cheat for no reason other than self pleasure.

About me: I am very much into games. All my favorite hobbies are gaming related, and I even play with game design every now and then. I love nerdy culture, so comics, movies, fantasy, fiction... Although I am more of a gamer than a watcher or reader.

I have been told frequently I am on the handsome side. Pale white skin, straight and long blonde hair, blue eyes, and broad shoulders, a bit chubby. However, I have body dysmorphia, so, I don't think highly of my appearance. Either way, I'm not looking for someone to exchange pictures or personal info with; I think it's better to connect with people only through texting here, for now at least.

I love to write, and have been writing fantasy for most of my life; either through writing short-stories, creating my own high fantasy world, or through Roleplaying with others (mostly sexual RPs). I like to think I am decently skilled at it ~

Speaking of sexual, I do hesitate a bit to say so, because, again, my gut asks me to try to be moral. But truth be told, sex is how I most strongly connect with others. Not only do I think of sex almost all the time, but when it comes to fantasizing, my kinks are often extreme and taboo. Actually, if you are interested in that part of me, maybe you'd like to read my profiles on F-list, a community for sexual roleplaying. My most real profile there is named The Unreborn, and you'll find other profiles linked ~

As you can probably tell here, I am quite prolific, and struggle to keep it short. Even so, I don't plan on being here All the time; I do want to hide this, so I'll be away for weekends and most of the time I spend home. But I'd like to be able to look forward to having time to talk to people here, and to have the tingling itch to sneak away for a couple of messages. I believe in looking mostly for people that are eager to accept, and revel in their "shittier" side with me.

I am gender-fluid, but male-presenting, and pan-sexual, but with a large preference for feminine looks. So, truly, you might as well see me as cis and straight and I couldn't really argue. I am a big lover of natural looking women, though. So be sure that any chubbiness of body hair in you would be pampered by me 🥰

If this sounds like a fun time, and what you're after, do shoot me a message. I will probably melt and squeal if I see that orange notification bubble by the chat 💕