I sat here trying to sleep... as you could imagine I ended up on Reddit whilst laying down. I've tried and given up on seeking an emotional connection with someone through Reddit. It just seemed like it was to much of a small possibility of finding that connection….but after being so lonely and wanting to be needed and need someone I could not help myself but to take a chance again...

I am missing a piece of that soul....I need someone with whom we can create soulshine together... I am well educated, more than halfway through my 40s, with a very successful and amazing career. I have two kids, a great home, a sweet dog, amazing mom and siblings ...yet I'm missing so much under this beautiful appearance.

My idea of romance was not necessarily shaped by the typical tv romance but more by my parents who seemed to have figured out something as they were still going strong until I lost my father this year.... But sadly the book was written different for me as I sit here in the middle of my life with noone to lean on emotionally not feeling needed or wanted any longer. It's something I never want my children to ever feel. With the loss of my father and a friend this past few years I have mourned alone...it's the loneliest I have felt ...I don't want to be alone again...

I want all of the things that someone that is reading this post is looking for . I want to know about your days... good or bad... I may not have answers but will always listen and will always have your back.. I know how it goes with these posts and I have a little, hope. But nonetheless I hope that this gets to the right person and I hear back from somebody . If you like what you read I'd love to hear from you...maybe we can spark something...maybe we can be great friends...or even more…I'd love to find out where it could go.

In any case... just putting these words down in a post made me feel amazing...made me imagine the possibilities and it also made me dream for the possibility of something better.