I know I shouldn’t be here late Christmas night, and you probably shouldn’t either. I should find something else to fill my time, distract me before I drift off into dreamland, but somehow I ended up writing this instead. Maybe my dreams are somewhat to blame though, giving me the fleeting feeling of an ideal relationship. Feeling like everything I’ve missed and desired is obtainable, right there within reach until it isn’t.

Then I’m brought back to reality. I’m grateful for many things in my reality but I can’t shake the feeling of what’s missing- intimacy, connection, exploration. After a decade with my wife these have waned and I’m curious if I can capture these things in life again. I know I’m still young at nearly 32, but before I know it this decade will pass, and then the next. I want to reflect back on these years with experiences shared with a partner that brings us both a sense of fulfillment and joy. Prove there’s more to learn, more to explore, more to care for, and more to lust over.

Maybe you get it, and hopefully you tell me how you do. I want someone curious, embracing this next chapter. I’m still grounded in my priorities at home- young children and my career take much of my attention but I still have time and energy for this also. Ideally you can relate in these areas as well. Words are also important and I hope to meet someone who also shares that care in their messages. The question of attraction is always inevitable- I’m confident in myself and my skin while knowing I’m not perfect. I’ve been described as cute and handsome, have a slim to average build standing at 6ft tall, a full head of hair, and gray/ blue eyes. If our conversation clicks I’m happy to exchange pictures quicker than not.

Honestly I just want a friend with room for more. Life is hard enough as it is, and I’m not wanting to complicate things any more than they already are; but here’s hoping our cups can feel a bit more half full than half empty.